another new reality

So I'm as bald as a cue ball....had more hair on my head when I exited the womb. But the short cut was falling out in splotchy patterns and it was everywhere. Just got sick of it. Night before last I had Steve use his electric razor to take it down and yesterday morning a razor and shaving cream brought off the rest to make me rival Bruce Willis. Just one more thing to strip away what little femininity I had left.
Now I'm making daily trips down to the hospital for Neupugin shots....said to inspire your bone marrow to produce white blood cells. It's also said to cause deep bone and muscle aches. I've had 2 shots now and feel nothing...thanks goodness. Just tired and a tiny bit nauseous today from the biggie on tuesday....not bad.

Bright spot for the day: wigs fit better on a bald head and I still have amazing friends even if I look suspiciously like an alien :-)

glass half full?

At this point I'm just struggling to stay positive....I was supposed to have chemo today (my 3rd session of the super poison) but they tell me my white count is severely compromised so now I'll end up waiting till next Tuesday. I was already prepared to have this week ruined so didn't really plan anything besides Christmas morning with the kids. It'll be nice to feel ok that day, but I had planned to feel better by next week and was hoping to do something fun....anything. It also extends my 18 week period one more week. Ugh.....I'm just venting today.....The glass is still half full...I'm just having trouble seeing it.

Bright spot for the day....I didn't have to sit in a chair and let them pump poison into me and Steve got to work in the shop all day. :-) It's all good...

my new look

ok, so I haven't had short hair since i was mistaken for a boy at the age of 12 so this is a big deal for me. Sometimes I forget that it's short and then catch my reflection and it's still such a surprise. But seeing as it's still thinning pretty rapidly it's MUCH less traumatic now that it's short. Last week was pretty depressing....

Today was my 5th round of the lesser poison...Bridget was my new chemo buddy today. Had a nice day just sitting and chatting. It was soooo cold today but I just couldn't make these legs walk any faster to get across the parking lot. My body is so slow and my mind can't figure out why i'm so weak. It still keeps expecting to work all day and then do a workout, make dinner and clean the house. lol...I get tired after 4 hours of work and nap if I'm lucky enough for it not to be a hospital day or AGI day. In short, I'm realizing my temporary shortcomings and am learning to relax and nap.....after I decorate the rest of the house for Christmas of course. hee hee

Bright spot of the day: we decorated the tree....it's listing to the east and it's a little smaller but it's decorated and pretty. :-)